Monday, April 30, 2012

Fragile me

the only time i will blog now is when i cant express my feelings through facebook or twitter. that is because 1) i dont want to create drama and 2) the percentage of my friends reading this blog is close to ZERO. not that i always write angrily like some people and when people get annoyed, i'll go "eh suka hati aku la, ni twitter n fb aku. tak suka boleh unfollow or unsubscribe" but yeah sometimes i can be a tad emotional on the social network (attention seeker LOL).

so, what has been running through my tiny brain lately? my feelings, and how am i very fragile about it.

Case 1

Was having dinner with a dear friend, a guy, when somehow that night he decided not to be as gentleman as he always did. He was not being protective (i called him my saviour) and left me alone at the carpark. He condemned every single thing i said that night. He put me as low as he can (or at least i thought he was). But yeah, the fact that he was not being the saviour and the gentleman i'm used to with, i cried along the way while driving home. yeah! cried for like freaking 30 minutes!

Case 2

I have this friend who is famous of him being all grumpy and has 5% level of patience, but... he never scolded or raising his voice when he's talking to me. Therefore, it has never been an issue between us, until recently when we went holiday, together with his family. He was grumpy the whole trip. He raised his voice several times at me till one night, the last night of the trip, when he raised his voice, i almost broke down and cried (i was holding to the emotion because there were a lot of people there, but tears just burst when i was about to hit the sack). We talked about it, and in his argument -- that's how he is with his family, very assertive as he is the eldest in the family. He also said he was tired as hell. Well, maybe Audi-being-so-nice-and-politely-asked whether he wants to eat or not did annoy him, that's why he yelled (plus several other ppl had asked the same question too). I guess that was the wrong timing for me for being so caring. But hello! I was being nice and got scolded after? Of course I was shocked and yelled back at him. Told him 'fine, next time i wont ask a thing'. if he can be grumpy, so can I!

I guess i am very fragile, and definitely a major weeper! but in my defense, I guess I cried because I am used to these two boys being someone I can count on, and look up to, so when things didn't go that way, I get upset.

Oh for Case 2, he said that's how he acts when he is with his family, and most of the time (90%) i was with his family, that's why saya pon terkena tempias la agaknya. and because of that, i felt a bit distance with him because he'd be all cheerful and laughing with his other friends, and be grumpy again when with us. I understand that he was stressed at that time, but I was in shocked too.

oh well, i guess i need to get used to having grumpy friends. or, should i care less?


Wednesday, December 8, 2010

For BeST Programme, I opened up another blog. The content will be solely about the program. Feel free to hop into my other blog at www.audi-bestprogramme.blogspot.com. Thank you.

Monday, December 6, 2010

How To Reach An Audience Through Blogging

Disclaimer: This blog is written by a person who has minute knowledge of the blogging world with limited amount of vocabulary. Grammar wise - not good but readable.

A blog is a medium for someone to write a lot of stuffs, ranging from writing their personal experience, giving tips, writing about hobbies and interests, opinions on politics or economies to marketing their products (i.e: cupcakes, clothes, accessorizes).

As an amateur blogger, I personally think that there are some ways in reaching more people to read your blog. There are ways that can make that blog of yours popular and can even get more than 100 hits per day.

First is through your writing. It doesn't have to be very poetic (as not all are Shakespeare) nor having bombastic words for each phrase. Your writing must be simple and easy to understand. If you use certain jargons, you need to be aware that you are writing for all people to read. For example, if you're a doctor, try not use so many medical terms. Don't be too technical on your writing. Blogging is like conveying messages, so writing in jargons just to make you look genius will only create confusion therefore no one wants to read your blog.

Second is the length of your blog. If it is too lengthy, people will get tired reading your blog. Get to the point. If you have so many things to write, try to make few posts instead of one. For example, if you want to write about your holiday in Bali, you can split it up into each day of your holiday, or write separately for each place you went.

Put pictures in your blog. Sometimes by having some pictures together with your writing, it creates more fun in your blog.

What makes a blog a hit is actually the content of the blog itself. Well to me, it also depends on the target audience. If you just want to write about crappy stuffs, your daily routine, well then maybe your target audience will only be your friends and relatives. If you want to get a bigger audience, you might want to spice it up by writing something deeper than your sappy love story. Everyone has opinion on everything (well I have), so why not write something you see on the street, latest news, latest inventions and what not. If you came across some websites that is worth sharing, you can post it in your blog. You can also give tips and advices on things that you can say it are your forte. If you love fashion, you can write about the dos and donts in wearing leggings. If you are into gadgets, you can write about what's latest and what's popular now.

If you are selling products through your blog, make sure it is accesible. I think everyone owns Facebook right? Yes, there's even an article saying that Malaysians have the largest number of friends in Facebook. So you can put your blog address at your Facebook account, announce it every now and then at your statusesor send links to your friends. In other words, sell your blog.

Finally, an eyesore blog is a no no blog. You can have all those nice backgrounds with cute little birds and bees or rainbows but having too many colours and all those blinking word arts, you will only make those blog hoppers visit your blog once. Trust me, less is more.

Training at BeST (1st day)

Ok, so today is my first day here, at UNIRazak, Capital Square. I am here for training under Biotech Corp. which is called Biotechnology Entrepreneurship Special Training (BeST). yes, I'll be here in CapSquare for three months. i hope everything will go well. i hope i can make new friends, gain more knowledge and just have fun while doing it.

Some say it's not worth my time joining this training, with the allowence of only RM1000/mth. but hey, it's better than nothing right? people need to pay for education but i am payed to learn. so i have got nothing to lose here. plus, it's here in the heart of Kuala Lumpur, and CapSquare itself has its own shopping mall (cafes and cinema). and the best part is, it's near LRT station (Dang Wangi). i can travel by LRT to go here and i am an LRT person. i have been on LRT since my high school years, and i think it's hassle free. now they have extended their coaches to four, so i think it'll cut more time queing to get in.

so yeah, no complaint. weeheee.....

Saturday, July 31, 2010



i think i might had offended someone unintentionally. and it has been bugging me. i am truly sorry.

that someone, is a dear to me. i am not at ease. i am not.

:(


Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Chanel ballet flats. NAK!

Saturday, July 17, 2010


ok, semalam tengok sinetron (indonesian drama series) CAHAYA dengan mama. ada satu scene ni, maid tu baru belajar nak makan steak. yes, learning how to use the fork n knife. mama dah gelak2 nonstop sbb memang cara maid tu pegang salah. i told my mom, 'ma, ada je kawan audi yang x reti nak guna garfu n pisau betul2 masa makan steak'... mama yang masih ketawa x berhenti2, ' jangan bawak dia makan dengan mama...(sambil gelak tau ni)'. hahahaha mama...mama...


facebook status:

oh hello handsome!

tiba2 byk kawan2 laki reply status tuh. haha masing2 perasan!


Sunday, July 11, 2010

Sunday

watching Eclipse today with my sisters. not a fan. so the most remembered lines from that movie were:

Jacob: i AM hotter than you (Edward)....*ROFL*

Edward: doesnt he (Jacob) have a shirt?...*ROFL*. and this line came after i said 'perlu ke??' watching a shirtless Jacob. hahaha.

owh, today my tummy is extremely happy. why? gulai kepala ikan merah (lunch) and sate kambing (dinner) entered it in generous amount. hihi.